NYPD #35478 - Mehmet Yigit Korkmaz 

NEW YORK CITY POLICE DEPARTMENT CLASSIFIED EVIDENCE

#35478


October 16 1974

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This is my first entry.


I was walking down 49th Street to pick up my antidepressant from the pharmacy. When I

went to pick up my prescription, the pharmacist told me it’s good to keep a diary to

express my emotions, so I feel less stressed and lonely.


Expressing emotions?


A strong man should never open his heart and show weaknesses. At least that's what my

dad used to say...


We’ll see how it goes.


October 17 1974

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Today started a little differently for me. I was having breakfast at Ken’s, as usual—not

that I like that place. In fact, I hate it. Those ugly chairs with cracked, pale leather,

standing on dirty, broken tiles... god, I hate that place. Eating there just reminds me how

miserable I am. It’s cheap—that’s the only reason I go. The toast tastes like dry hay, and

the coffee tastes like mud and smells like asphalt. Yeah, it’s cheap, all right.


Anyway, speaking of different, my food was even worse than usual. I asked Ken if Nancy

had done something different with it. He said ol’ Nance had a heart attack last night.

I don’t know how to feel about that. In a fucked up way, I feel happy for her. All she ever

did was work, trying to pay for her grandson’s debt to Fon Gambino. But since that stupid

kid ended up in jail—just like his mother—Nance was just drifting around like a galleon

in the Pacific. No destination. No purpose. I used to know her son from ‘Nam. Good kid,

Italian. So sad he ended up dying in some shitty booby trap. Poor Nancy.


I need to stop now. I really do feel bad for criticizing her while sitting in my shitty

apartment, staring at the dirty wall. Did that stain get bigger? Whatever.


Am I really any different from Nancy lately?


God bless her soul.


October 24 1974

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I had to go to Cosmo's warehouse today. He still owes me for hauling that package from

the Bronx all the way down to Atlantic City. I still don’t know what was inside. Drugs?

Guns? Maybe some stupid gadget to hustle the casinos? I feel like he hasn’t given up,

even after that Romanian casino owner broke both hands of one of his men after being

caught with a clicker gadget. Such a fucker. Whatever — his place is in Queens, and I

had to take line F.Same pathetic trip. I still hate that steamy, overwhelming, dirty subway

air- it’s really making me regret that second DUI while trying to get to Julia’s place. It

rained all day today. I honestly hope whoever is in charge of Queen’s landscaping drops

the jammy side of their PB&J on the floor and starves to death. I got mud all over my

favorite pants. Funny thing is, the stain looks exactly like the one on my living room wall

— like it’s following me. Whatever.


When I arrived at Cosmo's place, he told me he could only pay half the money now, or

I’d have to wait another month. He knows. He knows I have no choice. That bastard

knows I need to get medicine for my mom’s Alzheimer’s. I don’t have many options left.


She’s getting worse every single day. It feels like a cold dagger twisting deeper in my

chest every time she looks at me and doesn’t know who I am. My mom is my first love. I

really can't afford to lose her, especially now that Julia is gone. I feel cornered. Trapped.

Maybe it’s time to call Daniel, see if he’s got work. Heard he’s running something in

Brooklyn — a club? A bar? Doesn’t matter. I need the money. Even if it’s a whorehouse,

I’m going, and who knows, maybe I’ll bump into Julia... I shouldn't be calling her that for

dumping my sorry ass... Daniel was a solid guy back in high school, and I think of him as

a friend of mine.


November 3 1974

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I talked with Daniel a couple of days ago. He said he needs a bouncer who knows how

things work and knows all of the important "businessmen" (He meant fucking mafia)

after one of his guys didn't recognize someone important. I asked what happened to that

kid, and Daniel said, "he is no longer working with us". I know what he meant by

‘working’.. Poor kid is no longer with us.


He’s got a cane now. I asked if he was aging faster than all of us when I first saw him, but

it all makes sense now. It seems Daniel’s ability to walk properly is also no longer with

us, not since that incident.


He also gave me a 1911 pistol. It’s the same exact one I used to have in Vietnam. Shiny

silver barrel with a black grip. Good ole friend with bad ole memories... I need to clean

it- not that it’s dirty- but who knows who that gun was pointed at before...


November 17 1974

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I’m starting to get used to my job. Frankie helps me a lot- he’s Daniel’s right-hand man. I

know him from back in the day when we ran some gigs together to make money.

Trustworthy guy. I usually tell younger kids what to do and how to treat our precious

"customers" and other not-so-precious drunks. Simple job. If a name bigger than Daniel

starts a problem, conciliate. If not, resort to violence. Sometimes I join the rumble for fun

to swing some punches, not for the thrill of getting beaten; they’re usually done by the

time I get involved. I just feel mentally drained. My ma always used to say violence is

not the solution, but I feel like this is who I am now.

Whatever, the place looks good and pays well, to be honest. Decent level of quality

people.


Quality. What is quality?

What makes you a worthy man to go into that place and spend money?


It’s all about power in these dirty streets nowadays...

No matter how good you look.

No matter how honest you are.

No matter how many brothers you lost in a war.

No matter how good a lover you are.


power

power

IT IS ALL ABOUT power- power to me, is too far...


November 24, 1974

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All is well. At least I'm finally appreciating a routine. I don't know. It makes me wonder-

if I’m going to be spending the rest of my life beating the drunk until 6 am in the fucking

morning. No family? No family. Considering I was trying to cross a jungle swamp on the

other side of the world two years ago. I should be grateful.


I saw that bastard "ugly charlie" the other day. I know he knows a couple of guys from

the government and does business with them both legally and illegally. Powerful guy,

huh? Power. That word bothers me lately.


He walked in with five beautiful angels. Heavenly.

He looks like a rat.

He eats like a pig.

He drinks like a dog.

That blonde prostitute on 32nd told me he fucks like a bunny, too, but it doesn't matter.


It doesn’t matter. None of it matters because he has power like a lion. It’s sad. Sad how

much less of a man you are without power. How much more lonely. How much more

unappreciated.


The society is BROKEN!


I feel like I’m losing my ties to God now. What’s my purpose?


DO NOT FORGET TO GET A THANKSGIVING PRESENT FOR MA.


November 29 1974

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My mom really liked the flowers I got for her.


I saw Julia today. She didn't see me. I was at least a hundred feet away, but at that

moment, after not seeing her for this long, it just felt like she was right in front of me.


My god, she is stunning, just like I first met her back in '63. She will always be beautiful

to me. It feels like time does not affect her. Her blonde hair was around her shoulders, a

little messy but perfectly harmonious as always. I miss her eyes. I don't know why she

had sunglasses on a cloudy November day.


She was getting groceries from that place next to Sal's deli. I watched her for a while. She

got tomatoes and eggplant. Assuming she will cook that delicious Eggplant Parmigiana

of hers. It was much more than she could eat.


I wonder if she’s seeing anyone.


I miss Julia a lot. There is something I still love about her. I’m not sure if it’s her that I

love or the good, peaceful times she brings me back to every time I see her.


At the end of the day, I am in love.


Limerence.


December 9 1974

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I met with a girl last night at work. She was gorgeous, definitely prettier than Julia. Her

name is Olivia. She seemed so interested in what it’s like to work in nightlife and what

my experiences were back in Nam.


I truly feel blessed to be finally heard.


I am a little hesitant to trust her since she is someone I met at a club, but she said she was

just there to pick up her brother, whom we just beat up five minutes ago with Frankie.


She is odd.

Just like me.

That's what I like about her.


I’m looking forward to getting to know her more, if she allows me. It’s been too long

since I felt something.


December 23 1974

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Yesterday, I took my mom out for dinner at Belligimo. She needs to be out of that

retirement house once in a while.


It was weird. Not that it was bad, but just weird. We were together for five hours. For the

first couple of hours, she kept thinking I was Dad. Telling me how much younger I look. I

never felt that sincere, warm love from her before, and it wasn't even for me, her own

son, who has been taking care of her for the last god-knows-how-many years. My god,

she was such a good listener. I wish that experience had never happened because it is

extremely bothersome to me right now. I felt that all-too-familiar lump in my throat and

rushed to the bathroom


Are those emotions I am reflecting? Maybe Olivia is really good for me after all.


After I got back from the bathroom, she was doing well with remembering me, but kept

asking about why I didn't bring Julia. It’s ironic she doesn’t forget the things she is

supposed to forget nor remember the things she is supposed to remember... I don’t blame

her after Julia had been around for a long time when she was healthy. Who am I to judge?

I still can't forget her, but all is well. I still talk with Olivia. We had coffee together a

couple of days ago when I bumped into her in the Bronx while buying wallpaper for my

place. I really need to cover that stain up back at mine. Especially now that I have a

woman in my life.


We plan on going out after Christmas. I’m really excited.


January 24 1975

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I didn't feel like writing for the last couple of weeks.


I got fired.


February 5 1975

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I got fired because Olivia never showed up to dinner. She was always good at timing and

never late to places. I started to worry and went back to her place just to make sure she

was okay. She seemed fine. When I asked her what was wrong, she said everything was

okay, but she didn't want to see me anymore. I was being pushy, and she finally told me

what was going through her mind.


She said she asked about me to Frankie, and according to Olivia, Frankie told her I’m

basically a psychopath—some crazy Nam veteran living with my mom, no friends,

nobody. Just a pathetic loser, a broke weirdo with no power and nothing going for me.


HOW DOES A LONELY PERSON MEET PEOPLE IF PEOPLE KEEP DROPPING

THEIR ASSES FOR BEING LONELY?


I went to the Bronx to talk to Frankie to see if what he supposedly said about me was

actually true. He denied all of it, said he doesn’t even know her—he’s only seen her twice

at work when she was there for me, and that’s it. He also told me to go back to Queens

and shut her lying bitch ass up.


Now the problem is....

How does Frankie know where she lives?


Now my boy Frankie has a broken nose, along with two fractured ribs. Daniel said it was

me who started all that and kicked my ass out. I don't know how to feel; it all looked so

good for a couple of days, my life.


I trusted Daniel and Frankie as my friends... I trusted Olivia as my partner...


I don’t know what to do or who to trust anymore. I feel lost. No one has ever been

trustworthy in my life before.


NEVER. NEVER. NEVER.


Except Julia...


I’m a stupid fool for thinking Olivia could ever be a replacement.

No one ever will be.


February 25 1975

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I don’t feel anything anymore. I remember the first time I started taking antidepressants,

my doctor said they basically suppress feelings (I guess so you don't feel anything at all),

so I stopped taking them a couple of weeks ago.


Just to feel something.


I don’t really do anything. I spend most of my time sitting at Sal’s. Maybe I’ll see Julia

again one day.


March 8 1975

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I finally started to see a pattern: she does her grocery shopping every Saturday around 2

pm. I saw her once with a guy. Biker looking. Jacked. I’m not even going to consider him

as a match for her. He doesn't seem like a guy who can give her what she deserves. No

one does.


Guess what’s next Saturday? Her birthday!


This is a sign for me to turn things around. I’ll be there next Saturday with some flowers

and those little chocolate fudges she likes.


THIS CAN'T BE A COINCIDENCE. NEXT SATURDAY IS HER BIRTHDAY. IT

WILL WORK. SHE WILL UNDERSTAND. SHE ALWAYS DID.


Sal said the war is about to be over now. We lost.

All those lives wasted over what? All those people I knew.

I have more important things to worry about now.


March 15 1975

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I tried to talk to her—or what’s left of the person I used to know.


She looked like she’d been through hell. Bruises across her face.

Her beautiful face.

My Julia.


I can’t stop thinking about how pathetic I feel, getting left behind for someone who could

hurt her like that. There has to be some other explanation. Julia is smart—she would

never choose to be in a situation like this on purpose.


She needs help. Someone needs to notice.


Her face was so pale. She looked like she wasn’t even fully here, like living had become

something she was just going through the motions of. She told me I needed to let things

go, but I know her. She was scared. She didn’t mean it. That must be why she never

reached out all that time after I got back from the war. Yes... that has to be it.


“Stop harassing me.”?

No. She was afraid. That’s all.


What an animal to send my Julia to the grocery store on her birthday. She is so precious.


I keep wondering how long this has been happening.

THE SUNGLASSES.


April 1975

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This has to stop.

I will save her.

She needs my help, my Julia.


THIS IS MY PURPOSE.

good god

I have to be around her neighborhood to make sure she is safe.


I love you Mom.


May 21 1975

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I will save her.



CRIME SCENE INVESTIGATION - NYPD


Department: NYPD – Detective Bureau

Report Type: Homicide Investigation

Case No.: 1975-HM-2291

Date of Report: 05/21/1975

Reporting Detective: Det. L. Navarro, Shield #4172

Partner Detective: Det. S. O’Donnell, Shield #3904

Precinct: 112th Precinct


Victim Information

Name: Benjamin Greenwood

Sex: Male

Age: 36

Pronounced Dead: 05/21/1975 at 23:14 hours

Pronounced By: FDNY EMS Unit 83D, Paramedic K. Santos

Cause of death (preliminary): Single gunshot wound to the upper torso.


Incident Information

Date/Time: 05/21/1975 — Approx. 22:58 hours

Location: Private residence at 47-92 Hawthorne Avenue, Queens, NY 11377


Officers responded to a 911 call reporting a break-in and shots fired. Upon

arrival, officers located the victim, later identified as Benjamin Greenwood, lying

inside the hallway near the front entrance. A handgun consistent with a

1911-style firearm was found on the floor adjacent to the victim.

Witness Julia Decaprini stated she was present inside the residence with her

boyfriend, Anthony Carver, at the time of the incident. According to her

statement, the victim forced entry through the front door while armed. Decaprini

reported that she took cover while Carver confronted the intruder. Carver

allegedly discharged his .45 caliber handgun one time, striking the victim in the

upper torso. The victim collapsed and dropped his weapon immediately after

being shot.

FDNY EMS pronounced the victim deceased at the scene.


Evidence

Item #1: 1911-style handgun recovered next to victim #12522

Item #2: Spent .45 caliber casing recovered near living room threshold #12563

Item #3: .45 caliber handgun owned by witness (safely secured by officers)

Item #4: Photographs and measurements taken by CSI

Item #5: A diary found with the victim #35478


Scene Description

The front door showed damage consistent with forced entry. The victim was

found on his back approximately 3 feet inside the residence. No additional signs

of struggle observed. Residence secured and processed by the Crime Scene

Unit.


Witness / Shooter Information

Witness / Involved Party #1

Name: Anthony Carver

Statement:

Witness stated he fired one round from his legally owned .45 caliber handgun

after the victim forcibly entered the residence while armed. Witness further stated

he did not know the victim and had never seen him before the incident.

Witness / Involved Party #2

Name: Julia Decaprini

Statement:

Witness stated she had no idea what was happening when the individual forced

entry into the residence while armed.

She also clearly stated she doesn’t know the victim.


Case Status

Active – Under investigation by the NYPD Detective Bureau.


Reporting Detective Signature

Det. L. Navarro #4172



NYPD – Detective Bureau Signature on file.


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